Transgender

Warning: this page contains material that the closed-minded may not want to read. If you are easily upset by things you don't understand or haven't seen before, you may want to click here.

(If you are Jewish or Christian, or have beliefs which are in concordance with the Judeo-Christian holy texts, and have a religious conflict with homosexuality, bisexuality, and/or transgenderism, please read this excellent book.)

I am a female-to-male (FTM/F2M/F-M) Transgender and transsexual person. (Not clear on what that means? Click here.) After I found out what Transgender meant, when I was 15, I educated myself entirely via the Internet. Some of the sites listed below, among others, gave me the information I needed to begin my transition. I socially transitioned (told everyone that I was a guy and presenting and living my life as a guy) at 16, and am happier than I ever was prior to transition. If you're interested in hearing more of my personal story, you can find it here.

I'm also a member of Compass, the southern New England support group for Transmasculine folks, which I love and recommend to anyone who was labelled female at birth but doesn't feel that that is a complete or accurate description of their gender. Check out their website for more information.

I started taking testosterone via the AndroDerm patch on 18 August 2000. On 12 February 2003, I began using AndroGel instead of the patch because I was tired of the skin irritation. I raised my dose on 29 July 2003, from 2.5mg per day to alternating between 2.5mg and 5mg each day, averaging 3.75mg per day. (This is the equivalent of around 75mg by weekly injection. Most Trans guys inject their T.) On Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I put on 5mg, and on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday I put on 2.5mg.

On 08 August 2003, I switched from gel to injections: 50mg every week. I inject testosterone enanthate, suspended in sesame seed oil, and I initially used 25 gauge, 1-inch needles to inject.

As of 21 December 2004, I am self-injecting with 27 gauge, 5/8-inch needles. I used the 25 gauge needles to draw up until they ran out in late 2006; then I bought 20 gauge needles to draw up with. Sometime perhaps in early 2005 I started injecting 60mg every week instead of 50mg, to help myself feel secure that I was definitely getting enough testosterone and wasn't riding the edge. At some point a few years later, maybe in 2010, I dropped my dose back down to 50mg per week.

I had top surgery (mastectomy that specifically creates a male-appearing chest) on 14 January 2004. More info about that is here. Pics of my healing process are here.

On 13 October 2010, I had a complete hysterectomy with bilateral salpingo-oopherectomy (removal of the uterus and cervix, fallopian tubes, and ovaries) in a laparascopic procedure at Emerson Hospital in Concord, MA. After my hysto I dropped my hormone dose from 50mg to 40mg, still weekly. To read more about my hysto experience, see here.

Click here for my entire transition diary, which unfortunately starts on my first day of testosterone and not before.

Think you might be Trans? Want more info? Check out some Trans organizations and local support groups, and find support online!

Click here for FTM passing tips!

Cisgender Privilege - yet another spin on Peggy McIntosh's famous work, White Privilege: Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack (For the curious, Male Privilege, by Barry Deutsch, is here).

Click here for a list of free crisis hotlines.

Click here for a ton of resources, including the WPATH Standards Of Care, FTM surgery costs, Internet mailing lists, magazines, nightspots, reading lists, Trans-friendly shops and stores, support groups, surgeons, and gender therapists. (Not just for Trans folks.)

Check it out: Refuge Restrooms - because everyone deserves a safe place to go. (An app, created by a Trans woman, which will help you find public toilets that are safe for Trans and gender-nonconforming people to use in cities around the world.)

There's a lot of offensive stuff about Queer folks, and particularly Trans people, that floats around - especially on the Internet. I think it's about time that we worked to clarify what's offensive and what's not, so there's less grey area, less ignorance, and thus fewer excuses for being offensive. So anyway, click here for some clarifications. Also, feel free to contact me with any additions.


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