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March 25, 2002

Walking down the street
Are you a boy or a girl
I smile and walk on

I have a secret
I know something you don't know
A beautiful truth

Gender is inside
It's not in my hair or clothes
Not between my legs

Not in where I shop
Nor the fact that I love kids
NOT in my lover

It's deep inside
In a place your rules can't touch
And I defy you

Because finally
I look at myself and know
Who I really am

 

April 1, 2002

Always remember
Just 'cause someone looks the part
Doesn't mean they are.

 

April 4, 2002

Not woman, not man
Not girl, not your kind of boy
I'm something much more

I transcend it all
Your boundaries, your limits
'Cause those rules don't fit

I am too complex
I reserve the right to be
You can't box me in

If I take labels
They'll be labels that I chose
Or maybe made up

'Cause they have to fit
Snug and warm and comfortable
The way most just don't

Am I intersex?
Not male, but am I female?
I am and I'm not.

Not straight and not gay
I don't fit with what they mean
Not bi, 'cause which two?

Queer feels right for me
It's the person that matters
Cliché as that sounds

Not butch and not femme
But I do have my butch side
So - butchish andro.

I am not a girl
Not woman, not man either
They just don't feel right

Not a "normal" boy
Know what? I don't want to be.
Stick that in your pipe.

"What the hell are you?"
I'm a Transboy. Deal with it.
NOT a "normal guy."

I'm butchish andro,
Queer Transboy extraordinaire
And damn proud of it.

You think you know me
But if you don't know all this
You don't have a clue.